Long time no posting. I have just been too busy and not in the mood to post anyway. Jas, my baby girl, is now a married woman. She is grown-up, independent, and riding a motorcycle. She is ready to conquer the world. Yet, it seemed like only yesterday that she was a baby wrinkling her cute button of a nose at me and saying, "no, no, no." I do not remember what she was referring to but she sure had a strong mind. It is difficult for a mother, especially this mother to treat her baby like an adult (hehehehe....) but I am getting better at it. Because I feel this way about Jas, I am feeling more tender towards my own mother.

I wonder whether my older daughter feels towards me what I am feeling towards my mother. Three generations of strong Eurasian women--two in their twenties, one in her mid-fifties and the third in her 70s. I classify all of us as Eurasian because we look Chinese, eat spicy Malaysian food, speak English, Chinese, and Malay, and follow Christianity fused with many traditional beliefs. No wonder we are all mixed up! Amy Tan has it easy by comparison. This is too difficult to write. I am going offline. Maybe the next time will be easier for me.